Wednesday, 20 June 2012
so i just got out today after days of my mom nagging me to hang out.. i guess it did make me feel better.. because i felt like, why settle for less when i can have more? i mean, look at the big picture with a positive outlook.. my teenage has been saved from a blood sucking monster, and i've got another chance to find a better future.. its all in my hands now, again.. this time i've got experience, confidence and i guess i'm more mature now, because of all that..
its just not my type to hang around with friends no matter how close they could be.. perhaps im too protective of myself.. well anyways, i like it that way.. mom is my bff and hanging around with her is cool enough.. there's nothing i cant share with her.. but still, maybe im just too lazy to get out now.. too lazy to get infront of the mirror and put up a smile on my face, as if im putting lipstick on.. blah! but i guess.. everyone is saying right.. keeping myself locked up in my room wouldn't help me.. i need to see the world to understand what i'm missing..
afterall, he wasnt my personal choice anyway.. i'm trying to think of my future now.. my personal choice.. oh yes.. that picture i have been crazed about.. he totally was nothing like that guy.. the guy i saw in a book.. sadly he was fictional, but yeah he got all the assets i go crazy about.. :) haha! what a way to love at first sight.. a guy out of a book..
lol haha! he's the man! its my chance to find him.. again.. i wonder where he is.. what does he do? does he even exist? funny.. the expedition begins.. finally i have something to laugh about.. reminiscing my stupidity is worth it after all.. ;)